con·stant
1. not changing or varying; uniform; regular; invariable: All conditions during the three experiments were constant.
2. continuing without pause or letup; unceasing: constant noise.
3. regularly recurrent; continual; persistent: He found it impossible to work with constant interruption.
5. steadfast; firm in mind or purpose; resolute.
6. certain; confident.
NUMBER 2, ABOVE IS UNBELIEVABLY TRUE IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW...AHHHH!!!
I've been reminded that having a baby is CONSTANT. I still have the suitcase full of "gifts" to unpack. I still have laundry to be done. I still have "thank you" notes to send. I still need to restock all the groceries. I still need to go through the kids closets and drawers to get rid of clothes they've outgrown. I still need to finish Josh's school (clothes) shopping, etc...
Abi is CONSTANT. She's needs to be fed. She needs to be bathed. She needs to be loved. She needs to be changed. She needs to be picked up after a fall. She needs to be tickled. She needs playful interaction. She needs her nose wiped. She needs to remain on a schedule. She needs help brushing her 8 teeth. She has many, many needs. She is constant.
I noticed at the first of this week that I was a bit bothered by the CONSTANT "needs" of our family (on me)...mainly Abi. I wondered why she couldn't be happy with her new, colorful and fun toys. I wondered why she suddenly didn't like food that she's loved, to my knowledge, for 5 weeks now. I wondered why in the world she keeps touching Bella's school supplies after being told "No" and receiving discipline over and over. More, more and more needs...gimme, gimme, gimme...I didn't want to meet all these needs, over and over, day after day. I was tired and wanted some ME time! (I know I must sound like a brat.)
Jesus is CONSTANT. I was reminded today that He is CONSTANTLY waiting for me. Surely, He is wondering when I'm going to "get" some things and learn from discipline, trial and error. Surely, He's tired of wiping my tears. Surely, He is tired of bathing me in love. Surely, He is wishing I'd do more on my own. Surely, He wishes for me to get up after stumbling and without His "push." Surely, He wishes I'd gain more patience and stop being short tempered on some days. Not true.
The TRUTH is that...HE IS CONSTANT.
He never tires of me or you. He wants to wipe my tears and yours. He wants to bathe us in love. He doesn't grow impatient with us but instead continues to love us unconditionally. We often view Him as being human when He's really supernatural. I'm glad He's patient with me and has given us the desire of heart to receive Abi. I'm thankful He can give grace and patience when I need it the most. I am ABLE because He lives in me!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Today has been great. The kids and I are specifically trying not to tell Abi, "no!" unless it's truly necessary. She's been less feisty and easier to love...she must be thinking the same is true of us. We went to Old Navy and TJ Maxx this morning for school clothes for Josh and a backpack. Bella got some leggings and some sequined, hot pink, tennis shoes at Old Navy!! I wish they had my size! ;) Abi was great during our shopping spree. We had a nice lunch when we got home and when she finally decided it was okay to eat her smoked turkey, she got the fruit she wanted so badly! Then down for a nap with ease.
Tonight we will go to Bella's Open House at Water's Elementary School. I'm praying that she receives as much attention as Abi will because it's HER night! She's excited about making new friends this year! She's a great friend to have...loyal and kind.
Yesterday, we went to Evan's Middle School to get Josh's class schedule and his school supply lists. Once again the halls seemed long and narrow. He walked through the halls with confidence, smiling at friends, etc. After shopping today, I asked Josh to try on his clothes. I was preparing lunch and he waltzed in with his cool, new shirt and jeans. He looked so grown up and his life seemingly flashed before me. Tears came as he was walking away and I had approved the outfit. I asked him to come back into the kitchen and then said, "Can I have a hug?" He leaned down a bit (how could this be happening?!) and while I was hugging him I said, "Josh, I'm so proud of the young man you are becoming." He walked away and I stood frozen in the kitchen with tears welling up in my eyes. He is such a love. In three years, he will purchase his first car. In only five years, he will begin college! Right now, he says he wants to go to Tech to be near us but who knows what the future holds. I love that boy more than I can put into words. I'm blown away at the idea of what he will become someday! He's an outstanding kid!!!
I'm blessed beyond measure.
NUMBER 2, ABOVE IS UNBELIEVABLY TRUE IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW...AHHHH!!!
I've been reminded that having a baby is CONSTANT. I still have the suitcase full of "gifts" to unpack. I still have laundry to be done. I still have "thank you" notes to send. I still need to restock all the groceries. I still need to go through the kids closets and drawers to get rid of clothes they've outgrown. I still need to finish Josh's school (clothes) shopping, etc...
Abi is CONSTANT. She's needs to be fed. She needs to be bathed. She needs to be loved. She needs to be changed. She needs to be picked up after a fall. She needs to be tickled. She needs playful interaction. She needs her nose wiped. She needs to remain on a schedule. She needs help brushing her 8 teeth. She has many, many needs. She is constant.
I noticed at the first of this week that I was a bit bothered by the CONSTANT "needs" of our family (on me)...mainly Abi. I wondered why she couldn't be happy with her new, colorful and fun toys. I wondered why she suddenly didn't like food that she's loved, to my knowledge, for 5 weeks now. I wondered why in the world she keeps touching Bella's school supplies after being told "No" and receiving discipline over and over. More, more and more needs...gimme, gimme, gimme...I didn't want to meet all these needs, over and over, day after day. I was tired and wanted some ME time! (I know I must sound like a brat.)
Jesus is CONSTANT. I was reminded today that He is CONSTANTLY waiting for me. Surely, He is wondering when I'm going to "get" some things and learn from discipline, trial and error. Surely, He's tired of wiping my tears. Surely, He is tired of bathing me in love. Surely, He is wishing I'd do more on my own. Surely, He wishes for me to get up after stumbling and without His "push." Surely, He wishes I'd gain more patience and stop being short tempered on some days. Not true.
The TRUTH is that...HE IS CONSTANT.
He never tires of me or you. He wants to wipe my tears and yours. He wants to bathe us in love. He doesn't grow impatient with us but instead continues to love us unconditionally. We often view Him as being human when He's really supernatural. I'm glad He's patient with me and has given us the desire of heart to receive Abi. I'm thankful He can give grace and patience when I need it the most. I am ABLE because He lives in me!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Today has been great. The kids and I are specifically trying not to tell Abi, "no!" unless it's truly necessary. She's been less feisty and easier to love...she must be thinking the same is true of us. We went to Old Navy and TJ Maxx this morning for school clothes for Josh and a backpack. Bella got some leggings and some sequined, hot pink, tennis shoes at Old Navy!! I wish they had my size! ;) Abi was great during our shopping spree. We had a nice lunch when we got home and when she finally decided it was okay to eat her smoked turkey, she got the fruit she wanted so badly! Then down for a nap with ease.
Tonight we will go to Bella's Open House at Water's Elementary School. I'm praying that she receives as much attention as Abi will because it's HER night! She's excited about making new friends this year! She's a great friend to have...loyal and kind.
Yesterday, we went to Evan's Middle School to get Josh's class schedule and his school supply lists. Once again the halls seemed long and narrow. He walked through the halls with confidence, smiling at friends, etc. After shopping today, I asked Josh to try on his clothes. I was preparing lunch and he waltzed in with his cool, new shirt and jeans. He looked so grown up and his life seemingly flashed before me. Tears came as he was walking away and I had approved the outfit. I asked him to come back into the kitchen and then said, "Can I have a hug?" He leaned down a bit (how could this be happening?!) and while I was hugging him I said, "Josh, I'm so proud of the young man you are becoming." He walked away and I stood frozen in the kitchen with tears welling up in my eyes. He is such a love. In three years, he will purchase his first car. In only five years, he will begin college! Right now, he says he wants to go to Tech to be near us but who knows what the future holds. I love that boy more than I can put into words. I'm blown away at the idea of what he will become someday! He's an outstanding kid!!!
I'm blessed beyond measure.
5 comments:
Ruth - beautiful words in your blog today - how blessed are all of us that our Lord IS 'constant'. Don't worry, your life has changed once again with this precious baby girl in your life but you WILL get back into a routine once again and you WILL be a blessed mother of 3 wonderful children with all the fun responsibilities of such a family. Just give it time, you've only been back for a week from a life changing experience. Hang in there girl!!
RUth I love these BLOGS but let me tell you something odds are greatly favorable that Josh in 3 years will more than likely drive a truck not a car and more than likely it will be diesel if Bruce has anything to do with it. (I CANT BELIEVE ITS THAT CLOSE! )
Ruth, you are an awesome Mom, wife, daughter and friend and I love how honest and real you are. Blessings to you today!
What a great blog about the life of a Mommy, and what a great perspective on our God and His unfailing Love and PATIENCE with us. Remember you have friends (and Abi has friends) that would love to have a play day on those days you need a break. It still remains constant, but somehow its easier when you are with other Mommies in the same boat..... coffee and muffins usually help too. :oD
Ruth,
Wow what a message. But I am certain that the emotions you faced today with Josh growing up are a direct result of the "constant" investment into his life when he was only one like Abi. She will be worth it and you will see fruit in her life as well...just as you see now in Josh's life. Use that Little Wings time for you! Blessings, Danette
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